so if I stay here long enough he won't come back... but he said he would if I moved... which I haven't... and I won't... cause I wouldn't... I don't want to be hurt any more... I want it back... I just want to have it back... he shouldn't have taken it with him... he is just too cruel sometimes... too mean to me... he really should care more... more for me... so I will lie here... and wait for something... glad he put the mackintosh over me though... shows he cares... he does you see, really... really he does... down there or here really there isn't much to see... it's all a little black or dark I suppose... I can't tell any more, it's been so long... bit chilly though... my heads beginning to get a little sore... my neck is cramping from being stuffed down here... my arms don't work either... I am dribbling on the floorboards, don't know why... but it is getting colder... is that a draft... could he be coming back in again... better not move... I haven't moved an inch since you were last here... but I won't say anything... no that would be cheating... and I don't want him to hurt me... not really... I do hate it... but it's all I know...